day 184

Here comes the


SUN!!! Yay! What a downer-all the rain etc...but...strangely enough, after a good workout, it doesn't matter. True 'dat, BUT grey weather still sucks, no matter how you cut it. Now, warmer temps (in JANUARY???), and sunshine. Nice.


Shebitch off Its meds, really ugly scene there, tough. Deal with it. This is typical, dig a hole, expect someone else to bail you out. Hold onto that waitress crap, then go psycho when you're left with nothing. Whatever happened to secretarial school? Counseling? Social Work? Real Estate? Avon? Sensing a pattern here???? No pity. Grow up or shut up. MOST ironic, this latest bout of psychotic behavior comes on the heels of Its return from a 3 day retreat. Too funny.

Spin tonight. Actually starting to look forward to it.


*** Boss, nowhere to be found, m.i.a. finally called his cell @ noon, he's in the e.r. internal bleeding. This is the second time this happened to him. Another staffperson had gastric bypass, lost a ton, put it back on-no behavioral changes, next you hear, he's in an induced coma. Shebitch? Did whatever It wanted/chose the path of least resistance/continued coloring It's hair and worshipping the sun-next you hear-cancer. STILL wonder why I do what I do how I do it? Do I love eating? Yes. Do I eat to live, also, yes, not live to eat. Tonight: 3 apples, a head of celery, a chicken breast. Dull as shit, but I'll live-and maybe avoid the hospital.