Day 1494

Whew!

Busy Saturday.

did the Take Your Base 5k-you remember, the race I swore I'd never do again? Well, never say never. They learned from their mistakes, it was well run. AND, part of the swag was a ticket for that night's Cyclones game.

Hadda circle back to AP, Tom called asking if I was going to the club picnic, like I care? But for him, I showed my face, then to Belmont to pick up the evening's race packet. Originally scheduled to begin @ 7:30, I hadda D.N.S. the Run to Glow-the time was bumped up to 9 pm, no good. Had Courtney Love tix. So, Belmont to get my packet, back to Brooklyn for 6 innings, then wrap up the night @ Courtney Love. Nice Saturday.

Day 1493

Brooklyn weekend

If not for the Paramount, I'd spend the weekend in Brooklyn. This am, a 5k in Coney (the same one I swore I'd never do again), and tomorrow, Cosme's-again in Coney. why The Paramount? Courtney Love. Makes for a great day. Originally signed up for The Run to Glow, it was SUPPOSED to start @ 7:30, changed to 9. Oh well. I'll get my shirt and head to the concert.

Day 1492

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ROUGH week, displaced, off my game, but good week. With the overnight in Albany, was outta my gym groove. But, back.

This am, Stoney left me his "please me $10" note. I started him w/a bank account! He has $ in his wallet. I left a note: "walk to the bank," amazing.

Last evening, Curtis's race in Flushing Meadows. never gets old. Hell, I DID grow up there! Could practically feel my mother. Nice.

Day 1491

Back!

Not too painful @Toxichouse, just the usual: UberBitch out 'til late, Stoney didn't do shit except computer, dog not walked/ignored/house filthy. In other words: normal.

Gnna pour this pm, sucks. This evening is the postponed race from last week-delayed because of the rain. The plight of the preregged.

Day 1490

Odd.

In Albany for an overnight-nice to be a priority member of the hotel-checked in @ 10am!!!!!-turns out, my former riding bud resigned! Translation: things got ugly, she was being fired but.... Now, what I don't get: unless you were having an inappropriate relationship with sheep-and had video proof on the internet, what's SO scandalous that you can't talk about it? Jeeez.

(AND, found my running shoes @ $39. NICE!!!)

Day 1489

HIS Bar Mitzvah!

Really felt proud of signing up Stoney for his first bank account. Of course, even THAT wasn't easy. Told him last week "meet me @ the bank @ 12." I was there, early of course, he was nowhere to be found. I called, he expected to be picked up! amazing. So, he now has his frst account. and the motivation? He needs to maintain a $300 balance, of which I started him with $100. He has a 2 month grace period. So, either he works or loses the account.

It? Again, useless. Storms in the house like a bull in a china shop, asking why i didn't set him up in Its bank. Now let that sink in. Yes, again, It must critique-after doing nothing for years. A great back seat driver. THEN, gives bad advice. How the FUCK is he supposed to access a bank which has all of 2 locations, as opposed to mine which is everywhere? Moron.

Today and manana, Albany. Meeting @ hq.

Day 1488

The big day!

Today I give Stoney his graduation gift. Why today? Banks were closed yesterday. Remember how since birth I told him "take half your $, bank it. Do what you want with the other half." And, of course, UberBitch undermined that, end result, he has nothing. So, my idea was to set him up with $100 in the bank. What he does with it is his thing. Think how much he'd have if he'd banked half of: Christmas, Easter, Birthday, Graduation $. But no, nothing. Just like his mother.

Kids in his class going pre-med to Univ of Miami, Cornell, Harvard. Him? Smokin' and Nassau Community. Again, just like his mother. An amazing kid, great head on his shoulders, hope he pulls it together. I'm here for him. Uberbitch? Away for the night, "working." Right, great career, nonlicensed home care attended for people waiting to die. Easier, softer way. Educated, B.S. degress, real estate license, doing this? Really a professional. Useless mother, useless wife, wasted careers.

Day 1487

The big day!

Stoney graduated! amazing. I cannot believe we made it this far.

Was quite a 4 year ride, and a lifetime in 48 months in fact. Unfortunately he will never know what a major thing this is, and why? The person who gave birth to him lacks the grey matter. Remember the fatal occasion during which I attempted to review his homework, only to have UberBitch scream behind him? So much for parenting. Did nothing to assist, yet critiqued every step of the way. Angela got it right, Bitch never grew up, and takes it out on those who are-in fact-in possession of a career.

Keith did well, only one misdemeanor, got his diploma. What gets me is: he is a typical teen. @ his age I had dreams and aspirations, and worked toward them. He sits @ his computer...all day. His school offered driver ed. Did he do it, or mention it? Blows my mind.

And all Uber Bitch can whine about is "I need that closet." Throw out your crap you moron.

Its family? What family. mine, took us out for a graduation dinner-you know, the people who tell It (per It's perception) to divorce me. Without thinking: if it weren't for me: he wouldn't exist. Useless Bitch.

Happy graduation, only a father would understand.

Day 1486

:)

Tomorrow Stoney graduates. Of course there is drama, but none visible-Toxiccunt knows nothing. Took a computer course, yet is completely ignorant-i.e. is grades and school info is all on online, i.e. he failed Web Design and pulled outta 2 courses.Does it even know? And, remember his bullshit about "I'll testify against you...." I know how to keep something between us, he apparently doesn't. So, when I came in and saw paper shredded, knew he'd intercepted summer school mail. bottom line, I asked if he was getting a diploma, if he was getting a regents, he said yes. I'm ok with it. Point, though, is: I can man up, he needs to learn. Asshole. Thinks he knows everything,and no, at his age I did NOT think I knew it all. I had respect.

Day 1485

TGIF!

Busy week, not bad at all, very good in fact, but for example: got in @ 7:40 last night. Not unusual in itself, but when I came straight from work it is-usually I'd have been killing time for an hour or so after. A lot happening, but not a bad thing, it IS-after all-called "work."

This weekend, Stoney graduates! Quite the milestone. Looking forward to it.

Day 1484

THIS is why I do what I do!

James Gandolfini dead, heart attack. Wow. 51 years old! Really a mob like Pedrito.

So, this am, 60 degress, cool, Stoney's under a blanket, lacin' 'em up and heading out! Then, Spin.

Day 1483

GRRR!

Good thing I had the am to get some miles. AGAIN, it POURED @ 4:30 yesterday. SICK of rain. But, the good news: it might be over for the week, and, now it's cool and clear! Better news: Toxiccunt was away for the night! (and the Bitch actually asks me about my whereabouts? Not to mention the effect of a "now you see the Bitch, now you don't" parenting). Bottom line: I had a quiet evening. And yes, hit the gym, Spin.

Looking forward to rain free days  :).

Day 1482

Back!

Got my miles yesterday, nice-warm morning. Then in the eve, caught a flick (was the ONLY patron, nice), then Pilates. that's the prob: work ends @ 4, Pilates @ 7:15. But, always something up.

This day, showers off and on, no prob. Not raining now, lacin' 'em up! Got motivation: a peep is trying to whittle down his time, he's currently 20 seconds slower. He's usually 10 in front or 10 behind. His prob: he goes off too quick, I pass him after 2 miles. Still, motivation comes in many forms.

Day 1481

Peace.

Toxiccunt storms into Toxichouse for all of 10 minutes, curses, rages, grabs laundry, leaves. Perfect. I make the mistake of asking if It can properly close the gate, receiving no response. Like I said, Toxiccunt. But, I DID get a card + chocolates after spending thousands to fix their errors. I'll take it.

Today, get my miles, this evening gym. It will be a good day!

Day 1480

WTF?????

Planned on spending as much time as possible away from Toxichouse. with Father's Day, didn't want a Christmas repeat performance-remember? Not even a fucking card?????

So, did the 5m in Central Park, bumped into Alina-always nice. Hung in nyc, then when all plans were exhausted, headed back. Lo and behold, a card + chocolates! Of course, toxiccunt merely cleaned out Its car, but, the same condition existed @ Christmas. The only dif? @ Chirstmas, everyone but me got recognition. So, after spending $800 to fix the fence the TWAT broke (and continues to leave unlatched), and $1,000 to fix the plumbing, I got the remains of what lurked in Its car. Point is: something. @ least, something. Nice.

The guy who is responsible for everything while the cancer victim goes to the beach, the guy who gets to play bad cop while Toxiccunt takes Stoney to the movies (yet has nothing for lunch $$$), the guy who is threatened with legal action for eating food from the fridge, he finally got some recognition.

I read it!

The story of what I'm living! Especially poignant as manana's Father's Day, hence, stay the FUCK away from Toxiccunt.

The quote: "Mario Villalobos believed that by being hated he was committing the greatest act of love possible."

Wow. Between Stoney resenting my every bloodcell-he DID drink Toxiccunt's kool-aid remember, and Toxiccunt doing everything to sabotage everything, I really put myself out there in the name of doing the right thing.

No matter. This am did a race, naturally bumped into some peeps. I truly have friends everywhere. What  lovely feeling! Despite Toxiccunt.

Example: I paid how much to fix the gate? ($800). It INSISTS on using my den as chief means of egress-remember, the front door is steps from Toxiccunt's car. In addition, failing to properly close the gate. Another strong wind and.....

Really sucks, but, I lack a wood chipper.

Day 1479

tangible

It was nice to be asked @ the gym if I was on vaca, another told me "welcome back." Point is: I saw regulars, a good thing, but if you do the same shit over n' over.........The weather's gorgeous, get out n' RUN!

This am, a lil' 5k in Eisenhower. Originally, this was the scene of the crime, then the organizers moved to Wantagh-also a nice park, but it's more user friendly to be closer-especially with a 5m manana. AND, it appears the rains are over.

Stoney's "girlfriend?" Yeah, right.

Day 1478

Payback.

This week sucked. Stoney's ending his school year on a bad note: jerked my chain, beat me for lunch money-thereafter coming in reeking of weed, come in yesterday: my crackers are shattered. Wonder who did that? No prob: of course, being friday, he hit on me for $10, I left $9. Hope he enjoyed the beer that was under his bed. And the girlfriend he supposedly needed the $ to hang with? He spent the evening with his weed bro. Where's Nassau PD when you need 'em?

He really has no respect. And when challenged, he (better be sitting) brings up the fact that I made the fatal error of consuming foods in the house. Imagine? I pay ALL the bills, and actually-call the lawyers-eat? Motherfucker ain't I?

Oh, and the bike uberBitch insisted be brought in, been sitting there for over a week. He's got $ for weed, but to fix a flat? So far it's been a year.

Useless, totally useless.

Happy fucking father's day.

Day 1477

:)!!!!!

WOW!!!!!!!

Hit The Paramount for The Dropkick Murphys. Never saw 'em. AND, the night kicked ass...so...que paso? The hockey game was on, Bruins vs. Blackhawks. 2nd opener went off @ 10, third period, score tied. So, they're Boston boyz, they weren't comin' on until there was a tiebreak. FUCK!!!!! @ 11 I left, after waiting an hour. It WAS ok, the game was-eventually-put on the big screens, we all hung out.

What made the night: 1)They're former punk/Irish boyz, very cool with Ramones people   2)packed house, everyone was behaved, though totally trashed    3)first opener, The Mahones, ROCKED! And I met the girl who played accordion. Very cool. A great night, though it WOULD'A been nice to see the Murphs.

Yesterday am, back to Spin. Instructor asked if I was on vaca, nice to be missed, but 1)do ya do these classes to become a gym pro? or to live?   2)you KNOW the classes weren't the same without me.

Day 1476

:(

REALLY hurt that Stoney lied. @ the start of the week, tried getting a straight answer re: diod he have half days or not-knowing better than to ask his mother-useless BITCH. Since he didn't give a straight answer, gave him $20. That night, he's up to 2:30am, came in reeking of weed, next day ditched. When I breeze in @ noon, asks what I'm doing there. Was I set up or what?  A true sucker. THEN I'm stupid enough to give him $10 for hang $ with his friends. $20 + $10. When asked, he sais he needed lunch, what? Am I now in charge of assuring he's fed? Told him his mother gets disability for this, I'm not his meal ticket.

Go smoke. I actually pray for his arrest. He has to learn.

And Bitch? You know, the one who doesn't ask but interrogates (as though I owe an answer?) Out last night, didn't come home. Cunt. Did It tell me where It was? Don;t actually give a fuck, but you'd think someone who wants to know would reveal as well. Fuck It, hopefully not returning.

No wonder he does as he pleases.

day 1475

Stunning


Yesterday am, RAIN, good. A day off didn't totally suck. As my pace improves, gotta let the body mend. + last evening's b-ball with Stoney killed my knees. So, usually Pilates monday eve, not this monday. With the pouring rain, knowing UberBitch would be in late, took advantage and chillaxed.

Though, during the day I ducked back to nail down the place, Stoney was there! Lil shit ditched school. THIS is why, normally, I give $5 daily for lunch, this week, $20. And of course, later in the evening, he reeks of weed.

Stunning, really. Get a job!!!!!!!

Oh, and does UberBitch ask about school? What do YOU think?

Day 1474

It's a miracle!

Stoney actually.....what's the word, ah yes, "spoke" to me!

He apparently has some sort of b-ball tournament happening with his peeps, wanted to shoot some with me in the backyard. Wow. Of course I sucked, but the point is, we did something together. Played about an hour, enough for both to get sweaty and need showers.

Nice end to a weekend!

Day 1473

Didn't TOTALLY suck!

Did the 5k In North Woodmere. Was odd, back to the scene of the crime-in more ways that one. First, it was one of the places the boss and I golfed-was nice to be back. Second, was off Peninsula, took me back to going to Pete's to get my car/or its car fixed. Third, I was doing t-shirts, so guess who I bumped into? And of course, you could tell by our former circle of friends that my name is mud. It's ok. They that know me, know me. Really not a problem. Didn't even nod or fart when I gave an extra shirt. Amazing how when push comes to shove, meaningless earthly crap trumps human contact-remember what caused the falling out: I (GASP) had the GALL to a concert without the peep-didn't know they were the producers/that we were joined @ the hip. Their loss. I'm an amazing person.

Best of all, even after doing yesterday's race and not resting/eating properly, + took 3 walk breaks, STILL had my best recent time. Could'a broken 10 mins if I didn't take breaks. It's ok. I was ahead of my former peeps. Didn't completely suck.

Then back home, did the lawn (weekly now with the heavy rains), and now, rest.

Sad how people allow bullshit to affect them.

Day 1472

Not THAT bad!

sometimes karma DOES come around.

Peep's plumber friends came by to fix the shipwreck. The sewage was pouring into the basement/out the side of the house. Yes, "shit happened." So, finally, since PSYCHOBITCH wouldn't lift a finger (remember: 3 of Its "all my friends say" are plumbers), I hadda. so, he came, he saw, he fixed. I'm broke. It's ok. the guy charged a fair price, the world didn't end. And I found out PSYCHOBITCH is $13,000 in debt. Good. Go back to Unique, do more shopping. Idiot. No wonder It never has anything of value, never budgeted, never grew up. But, blame me for everything. Good. Suffer.

So, thankfully, I have friends who actually...are friends. I do for them, they do for me. I don't shirk responsibility nor portray myself as victim, hiding in 12 step meetings. When It isn't @ an AA meeting, It's @ a liver support group. None of these assholes ask who's cooking? Cleaning? Parenting? Me me me me me. Bitch.

Never fear, I am here. But God forbid I use a towel.....or eat anything from the fridge.....

Day 1471

J.w.t.d.o.

Shit @ work, shit (literally) @ home, shit @ the running club. FUCK!

The assholes @ work are whining about...work (duh, why you think you gettin' paid?), basement flooding with sewage  (yet Sybil vehemently denies it has anything to do with the crap It and Stoney attempt to flush) and now, the social secretary for the running club wants to resign. So fucking resign! This same person WAS the president, thinks she's in over her head with planning a picnic. Yes, a picnic...you can't make this shit up. Luxury problems, all of them. Assholes @ work: enjoy unemployment. Shit in the basement: if the BITCH didn't threaten legal action over everything from my using a towel to actually (gasp) eating something from the fridge, I'd happily fix anything, but when it's all "fix my mess which I deny creating," kind'a kills the motivation! Remember when I wanted them to stop using my den as Grand Central Station? God forbid the guy who does everything has a space-but it was ok to use as a recovery zone-remember 6 months of The Patient???????

Surreal, really.

So, last night was the Police 5k in Eisenhower. Was really close to bailing, but glad I did it. I had ZERO motivation, other than I was preregged. LIGHT sprinkles before, was afraid we'd get walloped, but no, did ok. And though i took 2 mini walk breaks, actually was ahead of some usual suspects, though Big Bird continues kicking my ass-10 years older than me and he smokes me! (then again, he trains, is retired, and has a great home life).

So it goes.....

Day 1470

Check, double check!

Did my NYRR Volunteer shift-number pickup for the Oakley 10k-a women's race, so I wasn't missing out. Walked in, a peep said "now I KNOW you ain't doin' this one," to which I responded "I'm here to make the place look good." Really feel @ home there, the irrascible Janet even hung with me for a bit. Nice. I was doing t shirt distribution, from 3:30-6:15-they let us go 45 mins early. Great! Actually had a good time, and now did all my races + my volunteer responsibility. @014 is all set. Also was nice talking with a woman who was real down on herself-she did the Israel run, 30 secs faster than me (50% of humans are), but she was dif. Turns out, when we were let go, I spoke with her outside, she's bipolar. Told her, "so is half of New York." A good person.

THEN, guess who I bump into while giving out shirts, Rhea! Hung briefly with her-we WERE busy, then Maria! Nice.

Mailed the cd and tickets for Penn to peep who turned on me. Let her keep the Penn tickets, when you're told to fuckoff in a text, I'd say better to cut your losses. Amazing how quickly people turn. Reminds me of Pret. "Love always," then...poof, nothing. Retires from her job, not a word, see her walking with the old people in the 'hood. Wow.

Day 1469

Unexpected!

Hit Dave Davies @ City Winery. It was not unlike the Coney Island thing, but smaller (nyc property is a tad more $$$ per square foot). Same concept: parking lot. In effect, the parking lot behind City Winery. All things considered, not bad. Lined up @ 4 ish, in @ 5, started @ 5:37, nice. Sun for the first 30 mins, then in the shade, ahhhhhhh. No opener, the space was valid until 7:30 (indoor concert started then). Guy from the Jayhawks (who were playing inside and played on Dave's new record) did a guest vocal. Really a good night. Was right up front. Dave was in great shape for someone who had a stroke-voice shot, a lil' slow, but pushing 70 and still playing the songs he knew we wanted to hear. Nice. AND, he genuinely was enjoying playing live!!!!! New album, doesn't suck. Try THAT after having a stroke!

AND, he made a point of dedicating a song to Ray, telling the crowd they DON'T hate each other, but families fight. Might there be a Kinks reunion? Ray's voice + his playing=an amazing band n'est pas?

Crowd was well behaved, really had a great time. My kind'a timing: doors @ 5, show @ 5:30, over by 7:30. In @ a reasonable hour.

*Living On a Thin Line: wow!!!!!!!

Day 1468

Feelin' it!

Leg is still ailing, not as bad as before, but just to let me know the pain is still there. Race Thursday night (this is THAT time of year: Wall St, Police Appreciation, then Curtis's Flushing Meadows 5k all on back to back Thursdays.). This is good, breaks up the monotony. Was doing Spin, then Pilates, then Conditioning. hit the wall. Got good @ gym classes, ewwwwww. But it DID give my leg a chance to heal.

Tonight Dave Davies, unless the gavoons overwhelm the place, City Winery, small venue.

Day 1467

Rain=Yin/Yang.

Finally started raining-reason I did the lawn and hedges yesterday. That is a good thing. Bad thing: no run, but, also a good thing as an off day wouldn't totally suck.

So, Pilates this evening. Gotta do something  :).

Day 1466

Sucked, but not so much.

Too many decisions today. the NHP 8k (put on by nyc runs ewwwww), the FP 4m-stay true to Queens or...? Or screw it all, do the Central Park 4m Run for Israel, OR the evening Belmont 5k?

Did Central Park. When in doubt, Manhattan. Felt bad. NHP HADDA hook up with nyc runs-hate 'em. Then, got a text from Gillian. For years I'd done FP, since it IS a queens run, and for old times' sake-there is pic below years ago from when we were a group: brotherfromanothermother, Sue Gamez, Gillian, and I. But for too mny years I did the run alone, the peeps did their own thing, and I got tired of feeling bad, so to hell with it. got another Q, got a shit run in (walk breaks, shit), but I DID get my Q in. Saw big bird and his epep, also a great thing.

Then the lawn and yes, hedges. Hadda. Felt sorry for the postal worker who has to brish by them and get wet. So, did my domestic shit. THAT entailed missing the evening Belmont run, oh well. If I sucked in the am, I'd suck in the pm. Plus, the volunteers had sever attitude last year.

A busy weekend, a good weekend.

*and yes, it WAS funny watching young and old alike @ today's run ask "is it free" referencing the beverages for runners. Jeez. I know it's a run for Israel, but do ya' gotta be THAT much of a stereotype???

Day 1465

HOTTTTTTT

Summer kicked in with a vengeance. Yesterday hot/humid-close to 90. Same today. Unfortunately, today is Bitch day, so gotta use evasive maneuvers and get the fuck out.


Not an entirely bad thing. If we were a normal family, I'd do the hedges and the lawn, Stoney was in all day yesterday, didn't lift a finger. It tore me a new one-again, so my motivation is zero-knowing there ARE 2 people in the residence who COULD lift a finger. So fuck 'em, I'm out. Chill, rest for tomorrows 4m.