Late, but good.
Had my first late, late night. Closed a sale, felt good. My first. You havta put in the work.
Miss my peeps, but gotta remember, if I hadn't landed @ CATC, I'd have never fallen in with the running peeps. Remember when it started: Steve telling me how to stay in shape. running @ lunchtime. Verruso breaking my balls re: time on/off the unit (when did he NOT break my balls?). All a good thing, a lovely experience.
Moving on.
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Day 1797
One down, some to go.
First real day in the field, nothing. Not a problem, as you know, effort not outcome, the results will come in.
Actually spoke with It yesterday. After an initial conflict, It became human. You'd think with all the bullshit religion and 12 step jive it might actually practice what It preached, but no. I'm the toilet. I.E. one of Its peeps has a policy with us. I can't speak with this person because they were turned against me by It. Nice. Made the bed, now...and best of all-I actually had nothing to do with it. Because it felt the need to perpetually be a victim, of course a villain was necessary. Easy way of evading the need to be responsible for one's own actions. Convenient ain't it?
Today, meet up with Woodley. Be nice to see him.
First real day in the field, nothing. Not a problem, as you know, effort not outcome, the results will come in.
Actually spoke with It yesterday. After an initial conflict, It became human. You'd think with all the bullshit religion and 12 step jive it might actually practice what It preached, but no. I'm the toilet. I.E. one of Its peeps has a policy with us. I can't speak with this person because they were turned against me by It. Nice. Made the bed, now...and best of all-I actually had nothing to do with it. Because it felt the need to perpetually be a victim, of course a villain was necessary. Easy way of evading the need to be responsible for one's own actions. Convenient ain't it?
Today, meet up with Woodley. Be nice to see him.
Monday, April 28, 2014
Day 1796
And away we go!
First week as a real licensed agent/broker. shake alotta hands, lotta rejection, lotta commissions. After doing better than I should'a yesterday, I'm primed.
Still can't believe Polansky and his wife showed up. He's like me. so much going on on L.I., and he shows up @ our run in queens (meanwhile, the local peeps? Nowhere to be found).
First week as a real licensed agent/broker. shake alotta hands, lotta rejection, lotta commissions. After doing better than I should'a yesterday, I'm primed.
Still can't believe Polansky and his wife showed up. He's like me. so much going on on L.I., and he shows up @ our run in queens (meanwhile, the local peeps? Nowhere to be found).
Sunday, April 27, 2014
Day 1795
Nice.
Made it through the 5m challenge, took 2 or 3 walk breaks, STILL broke 10 minutes. Wow. Sad part: none of the peeps were there-no Pret, no Gilly, oh well. I was there. Best of all, Polansky and his wife showed. There were 4 other races on Long Island, they showed up @ my club run. Wow.
Really cool.
Slays me that Pret didn't even show up, oh well.
Made it through the 5m challenge, took 2 or 3 walk breaks, STILL broke 10 minutes. Wow. Sad part: none of the peeps were there-no Pret, no Gilly, oh well. I was there. Best of all, Polansky and his wife showed. There were 4 other races on Long Island, they showed up @ my club run. Wow.
Really cool.
Slays me that Pret didn't even show up, oh well.
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Day 1794
A good tired.
One of the many things they taught in sales boot camp was something I'd been exposed to early on: don't hang around negativity. Hence, when it went off yesterday (on the way to a meeting, naturally-hey, "I had cancer and now you ALL must pay" THIS is what JEEEEESES would do????? ), I hung with the dog. I go away, after studying for weeks, no days off, then away for 2 MORE weeks. Then, last night, I havta work today-Saturday. The business world doesn't recognize weekends. There is progress to be achieved. Period.
In return: nothing. Not a kind word, no interest. Only Stoney pissed @ me. MAYBE if your mother didn't inhale hair coloring for Its almighty blond hair, MAYBE if It didn't bake endlessly in the sun (AFTER melanoma), MAYBE if It didn't eat SHIT for years, It wouldn't be in this state. No, easier to be a victim and villainize me.
Yay Jesus. he is risen. go teach about it while your house implodes.
One of the many things they taught in sales boot camp was something I'd been exposed to early on: don't hang around negativity. Hence, when it went off yesterday (on the way to a meeting, naturally-hey, "I had cancer and now you ALL must pay" THIS is what JEEEEESES would do????? ), I hung with the dog. I go away, after studying for weeks, no days off, then away for 2 MORE weeks. Then, last night, I havta work today-Saturday. The business world doesn't recognize weekends. There is progress to be achieved. Period.
In return: nothing. Not a kind word, no interest. Only Stoney pissed @ me. MAYBE if your mother didn't inhale hair coloring for Its almighty blond hair, MAYBE if It didn't bake endlessly in the sun (AFTER melanoma), MAYBE if It didn't eat SHIT for years, It wouldn't be in this state. No, easier to be a victim and villainize me.
Yay Jesus. he is risen. go teach about it while your house implodes.
Friday, April 25, 2014
Day 1793
Back?
Enter Toxichouse, garbage cans akimbo (there's a word you don't hear often), the kitchen a shipwreck, havoc. Turns out, guess what was in the hospital for 5 days? Of course. Let the good times roll. There I was for 2 weeks doing what I need to do, and this shit happens. I enter the den, how does Stoney pay me back for having the BALLS to learn a new language to continue providing him with a home? The fan from the den is missing and tickets I ordered are nowhere to be found. Nice. And of course, neither knows where the fan went. Right. Hope they enjoyed Easter with my family. (did I get even a call?). Go teach religion.
When I ask It and him where the fan is, no one knows, of course I get yelled at.
Welcome home.
I work for this?
Makes the past 2 weeks seem easy.
And (as they enjoyed Easter with MY family), did either ask how it was? Nope, rather, Stoney vents his anger that It was in the hospital and I was....what is the perception? Was I on fucking vacation??????????????????????????
It gets sick-again-and the rest of the world-I suppose-was doing nothing? No one ELSE had anything happening. Amazing.
Enter Toxichouse, garbage cans akimbo (there's a word you don't hear often), the kitchen a shipwreck, havoc. Turns out, guess what was in the hospital for 5 days? Of course. Let the good times roll. There I was for 2 weeks doing what I need to do, and this shit happens. I enter the den, how does Stoney pay me back for having the BALLS to learn a new language to continue providing him with a home? The fan from the den is missing and tickets I ordered are nowhere to be found. Nice. And of course, neither knows where the fan went. Right. Hope they enjoyed Easter with my family. (did I get even a call?). Go teach religion.
When I ask It and him where the fan is, no one knows, of course I get yelled at.
Welcome home.
I work for this?
Makes the past 2 weeks seem easy.
And (as they enjoyed Easter with MY family), did either ask how it was? Nope, rather, Stoney vents his anger that It was in the hospital and I was....what is the perception? Was I on fucking vacation??????????????????????????
It gets sick-again-and the rest of the world-I suppose-was doing nothing? No one ELSE had anything happening. Amazing.
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Day 1792
So, after 10 days, here we are! Not only have I learned a foreign language, I had a roomate for the first time in decades (a really nice guy too), totally upended my eating schedule, and once again maintained an air of humility. No small feat when facing potentially ulcer causing issues-but when you have some semblance of serenity, your groove can't be shaken. Feels good to have accomplished this. Of course the office is breaking my shoes, they're frustrated that my license hasn't cleared yet-no one from ny has theirs. Dunno wassup with that, but keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Day 1791
Did it! Passed the evaluation, passed the sales boot camp, preppin' to head home manana! Nice. The part that killed me is doing this alone. That really hurt.
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
Day 1790
Crunch time! Getting down to the wire. Today and tomorrow, presentations. In other words: final exam. What happens: we go through our sales pitch from soup to nuts. This involves memorizing a script, including how to respond to numerous interruptions and objections. If you fail, you go again. Hoping to do well, did the work. You had the option of signing up for either today or tomorrow, I signed up for tomorrow. Yesterday, one of the peeps left. His wife served him, divorce. FUCK! Serving him while he was here. Ouch! It IS odd how some don't work as they should-I feel my memory is fucked-can't remember some of these paragraph long comebacks, but I put the time in. All I Know: do my best. Period.
Monday, April 21, 2014
Day 1789
That hurt! Really would'a been nice if ONE of 'em called, but I gotta remember, I'm Satan. Got a run in yesterday-local woods path, was nice. They actually put straw down-like a custom cushioned run! Looking forward to seeing the fob's this am, last night a new crop came in.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Day 1788
Happy Easter! Strange being here treating it like any other day. Not that I would normally go all religion, but normally go do a race, then hang with the remains of my family. Here, do some shit during the day, then study @ night. Oh well, this paves my future. My ONLY hope, it WOULD be nice if one of them did SOMETHING to contribute. Normally, if one is out, the rest fill in. I guarantee nothing has been done, not a finger lifted to improve/maintain Toxichouse. At least I know I do what I need to. I wouldn't be me if I didn't. Happy happy.
Best of all, as they go enjoy the company of MY family, did either of them clean any of what is now a week's worth of dogshit? The dog they wanted?
Did they think to call me?
No.
Hurts.
Best of all, as they go enjoy the company of MY family, did either of them clean any of what is now a week's worth of dogshit? The dog they wanted?
Did they think to call me?
No.
Hurts.
Saturday, April 19, 2014
Day 1787
Here we are, spent a friday night studying, not a bad thing. Usually friday nights are spent frittering away bullshit, at least I did something tangible: moving toward my goal! Yesterday we had the first big test-a verbal presentation to our trainers. I was told I'm "right on the cusp." Translation: I need work but I'm ok. They want you to memorize a million things a day, @ 54 no small feat, but I did ok. This day, treated like any other. It isn't a saturday, it's a work day. Hey, they pay the tab, I'll drink the kool-aid. These guys know exactly what they're doing.
Friday, April 18, 2014
Day 1786
Whew!
Made it through to today-hump day. Again, baby steps-learning a new language isn't easy.
Up way too late yesterday, but for good things-learning learning learning. That evening, applied for my license, online, everything went through smoothly. So far so good. Forwarded this information to my recruiter, he had e mailed me indicating I'd been assigned a territory-Floral Park! amazing. No matter what events transpire, my life seems to recurringly center around the same 20 mile area. Best of all, I'll be close to the Y! Cool isn't it?
Made it through to today-hump day. Again, baby steps-learning a new language isn't easy.
Up way too late yesterday, but for good things-learning learning learning. That evening, applied for my license, online, everything went through smoothly. So far so good. Forwarded this information to my recruiter, he had e mailed me indicating I'd been assigned a territory-Floral Park! amazing. No matter what events transpire, my life seems to recurringly center around the same 20 mile area. Best of all, I'll be close to the Y! Cool isn't it?
Thursday, April 17, 2014
Day 1785
Each day a little better! Got a call from Pret asking wassup. Hadda honestly say, every day there's tangible progress. It isn't easy learning a new language, but the technique they use (afer having used it on thousands already) really works. Nice.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Day 1784
!!!!!
You really havta kick ass in this world. This is a good thing. No room for slacking or stupid.
We have an assigned study area, it was a zoo!!! Too small, too many people, hadda carve out an alternate.
every day homework, with a test the next day. Fortunately, there is a vested interest in seeing you do your best. The great part: if you work hard, the results are self evident.
You really havta kick ass in this world. This is a good thing. No room for slacking or stupid.
We have an assigned study area, it was a zoo!!! Too small, too many people, hadda carve out an alternate.
every day homework, with a test the next day. Fortunately, there is a vested interest in seeing you do your best. The great part: if you work hard, the results are self evident.
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Day 1783
Here we go again! Day 2 of the training. Day one was intense. All day and all evening. We hit Walmart @ 6pm just to get out, then we had study groups from 7-10pm. Wow!!!!!
Monday, April 14, 2014
Day 1782
Here I am!!! Chicago! Have a roomate-wasn't counting on that, but it's not a bad thing. Hit the breakfast buffet-now let's see what the day brings. Chilly, long sleeve weather!
The flight-you won't believe this, left from The Marine Air Terminal! Told ya!!!!! My life revolves around Queens!!!! Played football not 2 blocks away!
Downside: parking. 10 days @ $25 a pop. FUCK!!!!! Now, here's what terrifies me: feel like I've lost my soul, i.e. gone corporate. I enter the training facility: cubicleland!!!! I'm now officially a suit!
The flight-you won't believe this, left from The Marine Air Terminal! Told ya!!!!! My life revolves around Queens!!!! Played football not 2 blocks away!
Downside: parking. 10 days @ $25 a pop. FUCK!!!!! Now, here's what terrifies me: feel like I've lost my soul, i.e. gone corporate. I enter the training facility: cubicleland!!!! I'm now officially a suit!
Sunday, April 13, 2014
Day 1781
So much for THAT
Made ANOTHER appointment for the taxes, and...AND...nothing. In fact, paid $50 to get an extension. This BITCH is costing me MORE. And all because It-AGAIN-can't do shit. It slays me that not ONE motherfucking adult task is within Its scope of accomplishments. Imagine: you get free money-Social Security Disability, they send the tax form, and-like EVERY year-you lose it!!!!! DUMB FUCK! But It makes extensive plans to go to Pennsylvania for a funeral. THAT you can do, attend to matters of responsibility? Nope. BEST of all: It's going with Its bff-the one who claims I'm rude? If I'm rude, she's a dupe! Believes all the negative bullshit Sybil says to reinforce Its status as a victim.
Off to Chicago. Later.
Made ANOTHER appointment for the taxes, and...AND...nothing. In fact, paid $50 to get an extension. This BITCH is costing me MORE. And all because It-AGAIN-can't do shit. It slays me that not ONE motherfucking adult task is within Its scope of accomplishments. Imagine: you get free money-Social Security Disability, they send the tax form, and-like EVERY year-you lose it!!!!! DUMB FUCK! But It makes extensive plans to go to Pennsylvania for a funeral. THAT you can do, attend to matters of responsibility? Nope. BEST of all: It's going with Its bff-the one who claims I'm rude? If I'm rude, she's a dupe! Believes all the negative bullshit Sybil says to reinforce Its status as a victim.
Off to Chicago. Later.
Saturday, April 12, 2014
Day 1780
BETTER!!!!!
All it took was Queens after all!
Took the test for the upteenth time, finally passed-barely. So, now, I'm in a whirlwind of activity: they're expediting my trip to Chicago. And of course, with all the details I've yet to finalize, the BITCH STILL hasn't gotten the tax info I need.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!
All it took was Queens after all!
Took the test for the upteenth time, finally passed-barely. So, now, I'm in a whirlwind of activity: they're expediting my trip to Chicago. And of course, with all the details I've yet to finalize, the BITCH STILL hasn't gotten the tax info I need.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!
Friday, April 11, 2014
Day 1779
Here goes!
Spent the day in front of the computer yesterday taking simulated exams, studying. In 2 hours I again sit for the test. Update you later.
And yes, I called The Tax Guy to inform him It STILL didn't give me Its papers. I REALLY need more shit on my plate. He even said all It has to do is go online.
God grant me.............................
Spent the day in front of the computer yesterday taking simulated exams, studying. In 2 hours I again sit for the test. Update you later.
And yes, I called The Tax Guy to inform him It STILL didn't give me Its papers. I REALLY need more shit on my plate. He even said all It has to do is go online.
God grant me.............................
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Day 1778
FUCK ME!!!!!
Obviously Bitch don't know what a 'roid It is!!! It -finally-went to Social Security yesterday to get the tax papers-guess what, the office was CLOSED! It closed after 12!!!!! Fucking moron.
All It hadda do was give me the papers when they were sent. I GUARANFUCKINGTEE the papers are lost in a pile of Its CRAP.
And best of all, we go through this EVERY YEAR!!!!!
Like I need MORE shit?
But wait, it gets better.
(and yes, by the way, It cares more about American Idol than getting me the tax papers. It conveniently forgets if I wasn't including It in the taxes, It'd have to PAY).
Tried calling to sched ANOTHER exam, nothing available for tomorrow.
Tried logging onto the website, locked out-wouldn't accept my password.
Tried calling to have the password reset, on hold for 20 mins.
FUCK me.
Best yet, after being on hold, they couldn't reset my password!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUUUUUUUUUCK!
Obviously Bitch don't know what a 'roid It is!!! It -finally-went to Social Security yesterday to get the tax papers-guess what, the office was CLOSED! It closed after 12!!!!! Fucking moron.
All It hadda do was give me the papers when they were sent. I GUARANFUCKINGTEE the papers are lost in a pile of Its CRAP.
And best of all, we go through this EVERY YEAR!!!!!
Like I need MORE shit?
But wait, it gets better.
(and yes, by the way, It cares more about American Idol than getting me the tax papers. It conveniently forgets if I wasn't including It in the taxes, It'd have to PAY).
Tried calling to sched ANOTHER exam, nothing available for tomorrow.
Tried logging onto the website, locked out-wouldn't accept my password.
Tried calling to have the password reset, on hold for 20 mins.
FUCK me.
Best yet, after being on hold, they couldn't reset my password!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUUUUUUUUUCK!
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
Day 1777
So much for THAT!
Failed, again, 68, again.
FUCK!
The main problem, other than a failure holding pattern, this delays going out of state for training. Everything is put off for a week! DAYUM!!!!!! It's been about 7 weeks since I earned anything, this suuuuuuuucks!!!!!
Failed, again, 68, again.
FUCK!
The main problem, other than a failure holding pattern, this delays going out of state for training. Everything is put off for a week! DAYUM!!!!!! It's been about 7 weeks since I earned anything, this suuuuuuuucks!!!!!
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Day 1776
Three time loser
Now, if I lived in a normal environment, I could vent there, but I can't for reasons you know all too well. So here I am. Last time I mentioned anything about "had a bad day" I got the "at least you didn't have cancer" bullshit.
This am, was scheded to take the 8:30 test-third time. The testing site had a shitload of problems, bottom line: I didn't sit for the test until 12:48. They suggested reshceding, others did, but I can't. If I fail, again, need 24+hours to book another appointment. Remember what happened when I tried booking today on the phone? They claimed to not have anything available until the 15th!
Wait, it gets better!!!!! EVERY ONE of the others who stuck it out had the same delay, but eventually got to sit for the test. Only I-Mr "I was there first AND early" hadda wait until DEAD FUCKING LAST!
But wait, it gets BETTER! The guy who hooked me up with this career/nightmare called me AT FIVE THIRTY this am. Wanted an update.
So, long fucked up story ends: I failed. 68.
FUCK ME.
Now, if I lived in a normal environment, I could vent there, but I can't for reasons you know all too well. So here I am. Last time I mentioned anything about "had a bad day" I got the "at least you didn't have cancer" bullshit.
This am, was scheded to take the 8:30 test-third time. The testing site had a shitload of problems, bottom line: I didn't sit for the test until 12:48. They suggested reshceding, others did, but I can't. If I fail, again, need 24+hours to book another appointment. Remember what happened when I tried booking today on the phone? They claimed to not have anything available until the 15th!
Wait, it gets better!!!!! EVERY ONE of the others who stuck it out had the same delay, but eventually got to sit for the test. Only I-Mr "I was there first AND early" hadda wait until DEAD FUCKING LAST!
But wait, it gets BETTER! The guy who hooked me up with this career/nightmare called me AT FIVE THIRTY this am. Wanted an update.
So, long fucked up story ends: I failed. 68.
FUCK ME.
Monday, April 7, 2014
Day 1775
On the Slamtrak headed back, Jack. Feelin' ok. Knees a lil' achy, but that's to be expected. Was offered a lift back, but that involved Queens peeps-in rain, I'd still havta negotiate my way back to the Death of Culture/Long Island. Better for all if I train it, also, get a chance to hit the books!
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Day 1774
DIDN'T suck
Did the Cherry Blossom 10m. One walk break, did ok. Glad to have had the opportunity to hang with the Strider peeps and remember there IS more to life than worry.
Really a good bunch of people, reminds me of how nice things can be when each individual involved is a responsible adult. These are people who made something of themselves and didn't blame others for their situations. Not an agenda among them.
Why note this? I often wonder of Sybil's "friends" know the meds It was taking made It Satanic? I often wonder if they REALLY know what It is like? Speaking w/my peeps, they all validate that they went through the same shit. Only difference, in their relationships-as hurtful as the spouse was-they both contributed. @ toxichouse, I'm the only one who fucking does anything. I.E. "I want a doggie." Meanwhile, when's the last time anyone took him for a walk? Cleaned up his dogshit? I can't even get Sybil to locate It's fucking tax papers. Really tough.
Now, back to studying.
Did the Cherry Blossom 10m. One walk break, did ok. Glad to have had the opportunity to hang with the Strider peeps and remember there IS more to life than worry.
Really a good bunch of people, reminds me of how nice things can be when each individual involved is a responsible adult. These are people who made something of themselves and didn't blame others for their situations. Not an agenda among them.
Why note this? I often wonder of Sybil's "friends" know the meds It was taking made It Satanic? I often wonder if they REALLY know what It is like? Speaking w/my peeps, they all validate that they went through the same shit. Only difference, in their relationships-as hurtful as the spouse was-they both contributed. @ toxichouse, I'm the only one who fucking does anything. I.E. "I want a doggie." Meanwhile, when's the last time anyone took him for a walk? Cleaned up his dogshit? I can't even get Sybil to locate It's fucking tax papers. Really tough.
Now, back to studying.
Saturday, April 5, 2014
Day 1773
Back in the groove!
Funny how these things work.
Back in dc, back to my old habits. Had some time to kill before the expo opened, walked around, found myself-again-@ their version of the ifc, here called the "E street cinema" (no, Bruce wasn't...), to catch one of their niche flicks. GREAT audience, we had a mini panel discussion before the flick even started. WOW!!!!!! Really nice.
Then, the expo (bogus), then the hotel.
Booked Tues am to retake the retake of the exam. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Funny how these things work.
Back in dc, back to my old habits. Had some time to kill before the expo opened, walked around, found myself-again-@ their version of the ifc, here called the "E street cinema" (no, Bruce wasn't...), to catch one of their niche flicks. GREAT audience, we had a mini panel discussion before the flick even started. WOW!!!!!! Really nice.
Then, the expo (bogus), then the hotel.
Booked Tues am to retake the retake of the exam. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, April 4, 2014
Day 1772
On the road again!
So, rather than lick my wounds, press on!!!! (good part of being a marathon runner-you just keep going!).
What hurt yesterday: Sybil? Ms.Jeeeeeeesus freak, Ms.AA, not a word. Yesterday was my 29th anniv, yay me! Only person who remembered was me-downside of humility. Somewhere mom is smiling. Picket a helluva day to FAIL again didn't I?
Nontheless, I'm headed to d.c. Carry on!
(what really hurt: spoke w/Pret. Even Pret couldn't be bothered remembering. Much less actually leave the house to hang. Texted and spoke on the phone. "Love you always," right.). THAT stung.
So, rather than lick my wounds, press on!!!! (good part of being a marathon runner-you just keep going!).
What hurt yesterday: Sybil? Ms.Jeeeeeeesus freak, Ms.AA, not a word. Yesterday was my 29th anniv, yay me! Only person who remembered was me-downside of humility. Somewhere mom is smiling. Picket a helluva day to FAIL again didn't I?
Nontheless, I'm headed to d.c. Carry on!
(what really hurt: spoke w/Pret. Even Pret couldn't be bothered remembering. Much less actually leave the house to hang. Texted and spoke on the phone. "Love you always," right.). THAT stung.
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Day 1771
NOTHING is easy!!!!!!!
Took the state test again, failed again. The good news: even the proctor stated "everyone fails," one entrant stated she'd taken it 4 times. FUCK! This time, a 64, last time a 66. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!
Took the state test again, failed again. The good news: even the proctor stated "everyone fails," one entrant stated she'd taken it 4 times. FUCK! This time, a 64, last time a 66. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 2, 2014
Day 1770
Deja vu?
Manana am, taking the state test again. The good news? It isn't expensive. The bad news: can't earn without passing this beast.
Studying today into manana am.
Yin/Yang: good news: I am now officially debt free
bad news: got to insurance (cashed out Whole Life to pay debts).
Spin this am, after having run The Line yesterday. I'm ok.
Manana am, taking the state test again. The good news? It isn't expensive. The bad news: can't earn without passing this beast.
Studying today into manana am.
Yin/Yang: good news: I am now officially debt free
bad news: got to insurance (cashed out Whole Life to pay debts).
Spin this am, after having run The Line yesterday. I'm ok.
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
Day 1769
IthoughtIcouldIthoughtIcouldIthoughtIcould
So much for THAT idea.
Took the state test, FAIL!!! Missed it by THIS much!!!!!!! DAYUM! Got a 66. Amazing ain't it? What hurts-among other things-if 65 was passing I'd have been ok. Also, gotta wait 24 hours to resched. This impacts on alotta shit. DAYUM!!!!!
Slays me that I passed the course exam, yet failed the state exam. FUCK!
The good news (there IS good news), you can take it as many times as needed to pass. Bad news: test taking @ my age isn't so good, retention @ my age has a marked drop off, and this just SUCKS!!!!!
Truly, nothing I do is easy.
Prevail I shall.
So much for THAT idea.
Took the state test, FAIL!!! Missed it by THIS much!!!!!!! DAYUM! Got a 66. Amazing ain't it? What hurts-among other things-if 65 was passing I'd have been ok. Also, gotta wait 24 hours to resched. This impacts on alotta shit. DAYUM!!!!!
Slays me that I passed the course exam, yet failed the state exam. FUCK!
The good news (there IS good news), you can take it as many times as needed to pass. Bad news: test taking @ my age isn't so good, retention @ my age has a marked drop off, and this just SUCKS!!!!!
Truly, nothing I do is easy.
Prevail I shall.
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