Day 2145

THAT explains it!

2 cars in the driveway, the one Bitch drives, and the one It got for Stoney-aka the OTHER car Bitch drives. The issue: both broken. One needs brakes, the other power steering not functioning. Think Bitch is a mess? This comes after It telling me It has a mole in my AA meeting-so much for "what you hear here...."

Bitch had a court date re: tix, chose not to go as It lacks the $ to pay.

...but I need counseling.......

Bitch is the living definition of "shipwreck."

THEN, tries convincing me Stoney has obligations. He makes $466 every 2 weeks, yet It TRIED telling me he pays for books, when we ALL know they hit on Pedrito to finance his books. Make THAT make sense.

So you wonder why Bitch rages @ me? The one being in that Toxichouse whose shit is together.

(you mean you CAN'T spend however you want on whatever you want, and STILL maintain your obligations?????????????? Bitch NEVER had a budget, never TRIED to live on a budget, yet is STILL deeeep in debt).

...but I need counseling......................

Tonight, I celebrate 30 years. NOT 30 years of drinking coffee to process Avon orders, then using sleeping pills to rest. Rather, 30 years without any substance.

THAT is sobriety. NOT avoiding court because my finances are a shipwreck.

Day 2144

!

Came in last night, Bitch behaved, we actually...what's the word..."spoke?"

This am, warm, but nice. Did St.Francis, 6.5, then Spin. REALLY a nice day.

WOULD be nice if Bitch cleaned its mess, the bedroom-literally-has shit everywhere, but It hnadda soak up some sun-good for a cancer survivor-melanoma LOVES sunshine.

Day 2143

:)


Broke 9 mins in Saturday's race, broke 10 in Sunday's, NICE!!!!!!!!!


Reinforced my good fortune w/a conversation with Football Dad this am. SO nice to get a phone call with positive results.


Veeeeehicle been in the shop for 3 weeks now, the downside of a used vehicle: parts are a pain. However, if the veeeeehicle was properly checked BEFORE sale, this wouldn't have happened. In any case, I'm driving THEIR car, so, who cares?


Life IS good!!!!!




...but I need counseling..............................

Day 2142

:)

Yin/Yang

Yin: broke 9 mins @ the 5k Saturday. Broke 10 @ our club 5m yesterday, NICE!!!!!!! BEAUTIFUL day, I did the announcements, had fun, saw my peeps. Pret? Nowhere to be found, funny how the Brickwell kiddies disappeared. The rest of the Queens peeps represented.

Got in, slept well, got up, @ 10am, leaving Toxichouse, Bitch started. Pissed I was "making noise." Fucking useless bitch. When the rest of the world leaves to begin their days, Toxichouse sleeps. When the rest of the world sleeps, they watch tv and get wasted. Nice. Best of all: It bitched about my going "in and out." (I hadda return to drop off my dry cleaning). Remember, Stoney and his peeps repeatedly go in and out between 12 midnight and 2 am, slamming the front door. I go in and out ONCE, which I NEVER do, and Bitch starts......but I need counseling.....useless Bitch, utterly useless.

I ran, I did well, I'm ok. Life is good!

Day 2141

Mission accomplished!

Had the club 5m today. Little rest, shit night, but I broke 10 mins, did ok. Pret? Nowhere to be found, but a gorgeous am, tough course, but I was up for the challenge. Nice to know I'm ok.

Came into Toxichouse, doing some chores, dogshit in the den. Bitch wondered where it came from? My stuff, moved around (remember Stoney's "don't go in my room," yet he has carte blanche with his father's property.

.....but I need counseling......

Fuck 'em, saw my peeps, ran well.

Day 2140

:)

Little sleep, half what I should. ZERO peace or tranquility where I lay my head. NO training, strictly speaking. STILL broke 30 @ this am's race. NICE.

Day 2139

YESSSSS!!!!!

BEAUTIFUL am, high 30's, PERFECT for a run. THEN, feeling SO good, did Spin + weights.
WAIT, there's more! Neil Young tix went on sale, we're in!!!!!

Life is good.

Day 2138

?

So, Stoney and his gf are having it out, to the point that she's yelling in the street. This am, they're cuddling. I give up.

Actually, it makes perfect sense in Toxichouse. Ms.AA sits on the couch as Its son has a bottle of 151 in his room, and Mike's Twisted Tea in the fridge/weed permeating his room. Bitch INSISTS on using the backdoor to let Its dog out (while the side door is WAY closer), promises me a new back door for my birthday, yet 6 months later-nothing. As the back door is now totally destroyed, hanging by a rusted thread. As It teaches religion and attends yet ANOTHER AA meeting. Fiddling as Rome burns. The car It bought Stoney? Sitting in the driveway, tons of the crap It hoarded within that car now in the backyard. Lovely.

...but I need counseling. As Stoney takes his anger out on the bathroom door, now sporting a gaping hole. Did It do a fucking thing? Nope.

Meanwhile, I gotta shift Its crap around to merely walk around the bedroom.

...but I need counseling..............

Fuck 'em. I ran, got my miles, then Spin. Healthy motherfucker.

Day 2137

Poor bastard

Stoney havin' to set his peep straight. She was having issues (welcome to dealing with Bitches kiddo) so he hadda read her the riot act. Fortunately, he had his best peep with him to cover his back. Really feel for the kid, the pain of a relationship can be a 'roid. He handled it well.


This am, beautiful temps. Got my miles (hadda hit the outdoors), then Spin.

Day 2136

You cannot write stuff this good!

Bitch dozing on the couch, Stoney with his peep apparently moving in/door to the bathroom displaying a lovely hole he caused. NIIICE. Makes me really wanna send a pic to House Beautiful.

Fuck 'em. I ran, I'm good.

Day 2135

?

Did well in the run, showed breaking 30 wasn't a fluke. Came in a minute better than the day before. Nice. Hit the gig, then home. Bitch home, no Stoney. Hole in the bathroom door, the frame he had on his wall off the wall/glass shattered. ...........but I need counseling...................

Think his bills are coming back to haunt him? Gee, let's do the math. Makes $466 every 2 weeks, more than enough to cover tuition. Owes $ on his credit card, hasn't paid either that bill or his tuition. Has plenty of $ to party, but apparently none to pay his responsibilities.

Go ahead, wreck the house, then smoke.

And Bitch? Does nothing, absolutely nothing. Go to AA, go teach religion.

...but I need counseling. You know, the guy who pays his bills, has zero debts, and is officially retired.

Day 2134

MORE things that don't suck: broke 30 AGAIN! YAY!!!!!

Of course, it WAS only a 5k, but still. Nice to know I can do it when I wanna.

Day 2133

Things that DON'T suck: breaking 30 in a race!

FINALLY, thank GOD it was flat with few turns, but still. With little sleep and no knees, did well. Felt REALLY good!

Imagine, if Bitch was human, let alone a spouse? Imagine if Stoney had respect/boundaries and didn't prevent me from rest with his partying? I could actually accomplish something.

Day 2132

TGIwhatever

Not MY Friday, but for the rest of the world it is.

Feel tired, been a long week, especially @ Toxichouse. Stoney thinks he can do whatever he wants, Bitch sick (again, it's a career), Stoney's friends there @ all hours, his babe practically living with us. See what I mean?

This am, rain, so, Spin. Felt good to NOT take a rest day (races tomorrow and the next day). What sucked was: the temp was PERFECT. But alas, there will be more such days.

Funny, I don't stay up 'til all hours, don't eat crap, take care of myself and exercise, and don't make a career of being sick. Hmmmmm.

Day 2131

???

Bitch's car FINALLY back in the driveway-6 months after it was given to the neighbor to fix. WTF? Makes me feel better about my used car misery. Yet, you must feel for Bitch. Makes one series of mistakes after another, yet continues making the same ones over and over. Rather than take Its vehicles to a reputable mechanic, insists on the easier, softer way. Then, gets screwed. Best of all, when I try to engage It in conversation, It gets pissed @ ME! How DO you define "displacement?"

Meanwhile, GREAT temps. Got my run in, PLUS Spin this am! Life IS good.

Day 2130

Done!!!

After a miracle, brokering Mideast peace is easier, FINALLY got Bitch to sign the taxes. It HADDA go to a meeting Mon am-naturally ANYTHING is more important than adult responsibilities-so our appointment was for naught. Yesterday, It was bedridden, perfect. collected It, It signed, we're done. FINALLY.

Stoney? Useless, he's owed a refund, he blew it.

Day 2129

TGIF?

Well, for me.

Rain this am, no miles, so Spin later.

FINALLY getting taxes done. For weeks been asking Bitch (and Stoney, but you know he's off the grid) for its tax info. Weeks later, finally got it. Hurdle one, check. THEN, gotta get It to the tax preparer for Its signature, a near impossible feat. DAYS after trying, this am, the day before they're due, we'll get this shit done. Fucking moron. Makes the simplest task nearly impossible. You'd THINK someone who has their taxes done for them would return the favor, but no. ANY adult task is rendered very labor intensive.

Thank GOD that's over.

Day 2128

Did it!

STILL can't believe I did ok yesterday. Was a beautiful day to be in Manhattan, but not SO beautiful to feel like a member of The Walking Dead. Really must be nice to get a decent night's sleep. But, it is what it is. No one promised anything would be easy.

Bitch behaving, what's wrong with this picture? Though it DOES still have the electric heaters blasting (60+ degs and this Mental Case is cold?). And yes, shit still all over. Surprised?

Fuck it, I ran, I'm good.

Day 2127

4m in Central Park. No walk breaks, did ok in view of 2 1/2 hrs sleep.

Another qualifier done!

Day 2126

On the fence

Was thinking of doing a local 5k. Temps were predicted to be ok, no precip. Got up late (for me that is, 6:30), headed for the race as Spin class would be too close time-wise. Glad I did. Ran into my run peeps, and broke 10. Flat, fast course. Glad I did it.

Day 2125

Glass half_______?

Check engine light on, probs accelerating, leaking fluid, problems shifting. Same shit as last month. Do I care? Not as long as I have wheels, and fortunately, they hooked me up with a loaner. Unnanounced, on a Friday. Maybe Jeeeeeeeeeezus Doesn't hate me?

Going into a gig, guy sees my vehicle, turns out he's doing The Big One. George Sheehan said it: "wherever there is a runner, I have a friend."

Day 2124

WTF?

Good news: walked in, Bitch behaved. It copped to the fact that It was bent about finances-has a court date on the 29th due to too many red light tix/maxxed out Its credit cards etc....MIGHT wanna STOP BUYING CRAP!!!!! ...but I need counseling.........................

Other news: Stoney, Mr. "Stay outta my room," feels free to raid mine. Came in, pillows missing. Guess where they were? Guess what illegal substance they reek of?


Got my miles, then Spin class with DW. Fuck it, I'm healthy and debt free.

Day 2123

??????????

Did I walk into the wrong house?

Entered Toxichouse, expecting the worst-after Bitch screamed "Jesus hates you," COULD it get any worse??????? Amazingly, it was peaceful. Bitch and I actually conversed. Unfuckingbelievable.

Got my miles this am, rain held off. Then, Spin. Ahhhhh. Feel good.

Day 2122

Sure sign of winter's end.

In winter, Bitch rages about oil. Not that It contributes anything to bills, but yet, rages incessantly.

Summer, the garage. the ONE spot totally mine, It MUST have access. There's not a square inch to spare there, but It MUST have access. Of course, I offer to open it whenever It wants, but that isn't the point. It wants unfettered access, threatening to cut the lock off.

There's piles of CRAP strewn throughout the house, yet It focuses on that. Literally, the kitchen, basement, living room, dining room, Stoney's room, front stoop. Again, check the Youtube page. Bitch is a pig.

Sick mental Bitch.

...but I need counseling.....

Over 200 hits on the Youtube page commenting on Its voicemails.

Easter, religion teacher (HOW many abortions?), yet, fresh from The Love of JEEEEEEEZUS, calls Its spouse a "motherfucker who should die a slow painful death." All this as our son watches.

...but I need counseling......................................................

Day 2121

It is risen?

Had a really good Easter. did the 5k, didn't walk/reconnected w/peeps. Nice. Went to work, profited from the day, still in the black, good. Got in, Bitch was behaved good. Then, THEN...

BITCH strikes!

How someone can be such a religion nut (tells you something doesn't it), so "full" of Christ and other crap, yet, wakes up angry????? After Easter?????

I came in last night, shit all over the bedroom, to the extent that you hadda CAREFULLY plant your foot. Fucking pig. It was too bust buying (got debt??????????????) plants and gifts, It had a friends birthday the day before (like It has disposable income???), then hadda buy Easter plants.

So, of course, It hadda strew shit all over the bedroom.

He is risen. Yay.

Fucking Bitch. Really full of the love of Christ.

Day 2120

:)

3 hours sleep, nutrition a shambles...sooooooo....did a 5k!

GREAT to NOT havta take walk breaks, did ok. Single digit pace (hey, it WAS only a 5k). Running half marathons and 10k's paid off!

REALLY nice to reconnect with my L.I. peeps, more "make believe friends."

...but I need counseling.......

Day 2119

BetterER

Did The Scotland Run 10k in Central Park. Sucked, needed walk breaks, but I finished. Another run toward The Big One. If I could actually get a good night's sleep I could do well, but it is what it is.

Nice to-unexpectedly-run into peeps. Always leaves me feeling good!

Day 2118

Perfect

Race manana, rain this am. Forced to NOT run. Spin instead.

Late night tonight, Billy Joel @ msg. :)

Day 2117

Really can't make this shit up.

HAD a good day, until........

Got my miles, then Spin. BEAUTIFUL morning, crisp temps. Spent a good day chillin', then, Toxichouse. Started ok, no one home, then...THEN

BITCH!

STORMS in, gas bill, oh god!!!!!! Fucking pay it Bitch! Instead, It takes Stoney and his girlfriend's shopping order. Now, remember, I'm fucked if I eat anything from the fridge, but It asks what they want It to purchase. Think there are some boundary issues here?

THEN, wakes me up to break my balls about some JEEEEEEZUS platter It claims I fucked with. Meanwhile, the motherfucking JEEEEEEZUS plate (love the irony dontcha???) was right there on the table.

Fucking sick mental Bitch.

.......but I need counseling........

Oh yes, It brought THAT up as well. I threw it right back, telling It that if It's serious, I'll gladly give It the phone numbers so It can make an appointment. It of course tried deflecting back to me, @ which point I brought out the obvious: since It insists on sitting in on the sessions (?????!!!!!), then having Stoney involved (!!!???), It should call. Of course, THAT would involve responsibility, not Bitching.

Day 2116

Serendipity

Hit tax person to file for an extension. OK., done. Now, waiting for Stoney to cut his bullshit and give his forms. What HE doesn't get: he WILL pay as he lacks health care. Moron. Told him very simply: give me your forms, and the tax pro will tell us how you can make the best of it. 3 weeks later I'm still waiting. Just as Bitch bought him a car, 2 years later he's too busy fucking and getting stoned to get his road test.

Fuck 'em, got my miles, then, serendipity.

Hit the gym for Spin. Hit up a peep after class to compare notes from Saturday's race. THEN, another peep and I spent half an hour comparing notes. NIIIIIIICE!(but they're "make believe friends" per Bitch.).

...but I need counseling.............