Easter

1)So, Pedrito sent an Easter card. After his cunt called me a bunch of shit (parsimonious, not nurturing...)I never opened it. Stoney-day late/dollar short-texts me Easter pm, asking when I was leaving to go hang @ Pedritos. Of course, after cunt's behavior @ Christmas, suffice to day its funeral will be my next visit. Instead of wasting my time in the presence of a judgemental religious cunt, who goes to church, contributes (her husband's money) lavishly, I went to a meeting. As fate would have it, I was asked to lead it. Things happen as they should.

I WAS annoyed I blew a chance for Stoney to hang with the fam, since he blew us off the last 3 occasions, but he understood why. He also questioned why cunt hadda claim he stated I wasn't nurturing, when he sent me the e mail at approximately that same time saying we needed to man u and not be pussies.

Useless cunt.

Sound familiar?????????????


2)Herb: went to my usual meeting last night. A while back, this asshole started frequenting this meeting. Wore a bow tie, always spoke of his being a musician in several churches.....not unlike JP.  Lo and behold, he relapsed. After claiming he has 15 years "sobriety" (asshole was abstinent/dry. His hubris preempted sobriety), his girlfriend dumped him. Guess his sobriety was pussy based. Never EVER give a cunt power over you. Asshole.


3)Stoney: woke up this am, started to prep to split to start the day. Of course, as I leave to start the day he's just about falling asleep. He asks "did you get any Easter candy?" God bless him. I got teary. No matter how old you are, you wish for a Christmas stocking or something (of course, he had plenty of weed but couldn't even get a card for his father), and an Easter basket-or treats @ the least. Since this year is the year of change, I didn't even bring up Easter, but his remark touched my heart. No matter how adult he thinks he is, he's a kid. So, first thing this am, I got him some treats. We have no toilet paper (it's his turn to buy some, so naturally we're out. He bogarted some from his friends), but he has treats. Good. He deserves them, he's a good person. No matter what, his inner child is alive.

S.O.S.

So, 2 weeks ago, Stoney asks for $$$, promising to repay by thurs.........overdue a week. when I ask what happened, he responds with texts JUST LIKE HIS MOTHER. Raging, angry. God forbid you fulfill your responsibilities.

He's-again-tapped out. Yet, first thing he does when he gets paid???? Hosts another smoke out @ Toxichouse. Today, he has neither $$$ for smokes or anything else.

We agreed last time it was needed, I'd get toothpaste and t.p. The agreement? next time, he'd get them. So, of course, we haven't had t.p. for 3 days.

JUST LIKE MOMMY.

The day afer he defaulted on his "loan" from me? Didn't go to work, called in.

JUST LIKE MOMMY.

But, plenty of $ for smoke.

1)He'll nver get $$$ again.
2)I'm going to the auto show.
3)He's really hasta get his shit together.

Sunday's Easter. Ask me if I care. Spend another dinner with crazy bitch Angela? don't think so.

What I've learned

1)God ISN'T a panacea: "I prayed for..."  "God_____ (fill in your favorite verb)..."  We-as humans-were created with free will. Whatever happens in life is a direct result of the choices we make. God didn't bless you with a child, you fucked and that is the result. More proof? Ms.Jeeeeeezus/"wait for the miracle"/I teach religion/I had 4 abortions/I verbally abuse my husband nightly befcause I'm bipolar as a motherfucker, suicide. Rather than face its problems or pray over them (?????????????) escape. Is THAT part of God's plan? @ what point does God's plan cease and human free will begin?

2)The internet replaced pussy. Emotional closeness is one thing, but w/instant porn on the internet, pussy has been replaced. People can never be replaced, I love my peeps, but shooting a load is shooting a load-details are unimportant. And don't give me that god shit, we were given sex as a gift yet need to complicate the fuck out of it. Do we get so moral about breakfast???? Eating is a need, so is sex.

3)No free rides. Want something? Work. The amount you earn is unimportant. If min wage gets you what you need-good. More is better, but blessed is he who is good w/what he's got. Again, i.e.Bitch. Spent, spent, spent. Then, when it became time to pay up????? Bitch dead in its piece of shit car. Nice.

4)Take responsibility. Bitch offed itself because it couldn't.Fuck her. Did us ALL a favor. Even the dog sleeps better. T.C.B. and you owe nothing to anyone but yourself.

Another day, another Bitch

Gotta give Stoney credit, he gets others to do his bidding.

Come in the other day, groceries were plentiful.

Cynthia.

I asked him who he got to do his shopping.

Affixed to home cooked, ziplocked containers: "for Keith."

Really CUNT????

You trespass (the house is in my name, duh), put shit in the fridge in MY house, and put labels on them????

STUPID cunt.

Does the twat have ANY idea how many boundaries it breached?

What would happen if I entered, uninvited, its home and put shit in its fridge????????????????

Fucking stupid cunt.

Not to mention enabling Stoney.

Amazing, utterly amazing.

But, to Stoney's credit, got the cunt to do what he needed. Well done.

WTF

aka, Just Like Mommy

I come in, Stoney claimed he was supposed to be @ work an hour earlier. He was there. Hadda pee, went into the bathroom, he was "doing his hair." Told me "next time stay outta the bathroom............" THIS from a person who enters whenever he wants, so, of course I asked "so it's ok for you to..." Of course his response "I'm not in the mood to..........."

Smoke some more, really doing a lot for your anger. Working wonders for your boundary issues.

Gets paid, smokes. Any $ in the bank?????????

THIS is how you interact with First Bank of Dad???

Really makes you feel good about providing a home.

Just like Mommy.

Must be nice to have someone around who gives the same level of respect they receive.

Just like Mommy.

Just Like Mommy

Remember when I -as if I hadda- asked Stoney to stay outta my room?

2 days ago, find his lighter in front of the tv in my room, he claimed he went to the window to see what Hulk was barking at. I open a drawer last night, he'd-again-fucked with my things. This comes on the heels of his room FILLED with smoke from his friends and his favorite pastime. This means he'd intentionally gone through my belongings-AS IF HE HAD THE RIGHT!!!!!

So, what have I learned?

1)He cannot be trusted
2)His word is worthless
3)Just like his mother, he feels he has the right to violate boundaries, as he contributes NOTHING to the household.

His response "it was only a_____." NOT THE  POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He, again, violated my trust.

Never again.

1)He will never ever be loaned $. Let him abstain from weed.
2)I will always check each and every crevice of my home to ascertain the status.
3)THIS is what I get for trusting.

Lied TO MY FACE when I asked why he was in my room, after giving his word to not do so.

Just like Mommy. Way to keep a vow.

This is what I get for doing the right thing.

Oh wait, it gets better!!! THEN, as I'm feeling utterly despondent, he enters my room-WITHOUT KNOCKING. I quit, I'm done. Good luck kid.

Better!

Passed through the worst of winter uneventfully. Couldn't say THAT last year!

Stoney? Borrowed ANOTHER $10, see last post. As of THAT point, he was already late repaying what he'd borrowed, now, deeper in the hole. MIGHT try giving up the weed???

Sop, why better? Remember all the yelling and screaming from last year? For SOME reason, no more of that. Hmmmmm, wonder why.

2 cars, STILL in the driveway, haven't moved an inch.

Me? REALLY good. Loving a peaceful early retirement. Actually able to speak with Keith without interference, Hopefully, one day, years from now, he'll realize what I did for him.

If not, I'm better anyway. One day at a time doing VERY well.