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6/26/16
Achilles Run, "Stay thirsty my friend."

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Day 2206

A day without...

Its asshole groupies breaking my balls is like a day full of sun! A LOVELY day.

Got my miles, met more of my Make Believe Friends, now headed to the gig. Does it GET any better?

Working 'cause you wanna, not 'cause you havta. ZERO debts, no raging psycho breaking your balls. Really a good day!

Bumped into DW and my other Make Believe Frioends during my run-thanks God. THEY get it.

Re: The Speech, "She loved..." regaling us with bullshit about how It was so full of love for.......Guess It didn't LOVE those things as much as Itself, or It wouldn't have left us to clean up Its mess. Hope It's happy now!

Re: the bullshit It broke my balls over (also hits on Its role as MsAA) "how important was it? HADDA get into the garage-did THAT make you feel  better??? (as WE are left with a destroyed door??). "Loved Hulka Bulka," so much so that It never took him for a walk, and left him unattended????? "Loved her son," so much that Snapple was more important than lunch $$$. Anything BUT devoted wife. Hmmmmmm.

I ran, I'm good. I can go home-you know, the house I pay for? I'm good.

Monday, June 29, 2015

Day 2205

Whew!!!

My Make Believe peeps saved my ass this weekend. Thank you one and all. Glad to have conducted myself as I did, safe in the knowledge that my people are always there-not groupies, but true peeps.

Did ok in the race yesterday. Nothing spectacular, but merely doing it was a triumph.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Day 2204

Done and DONE!

Ok, made it through the mass yesterday. Like I said, I was upset Stoney went over my head, but impressed he took the ball and ran with it. He showed spunk. Unfortunately, he got played by Its groupies. THEY did the readings, the idiot with the "but I wrote..." AGAIN read that bullshit: "She was such a ray of light, an optimist (optimists kill themselves?) who loved the beach (and got skin cancer) who taught religion (after 4 abortions, and neglecting her household responsibilities, only to come home and verbally abuse her husband), who cared for the elderly (while-again-neglecting her household, leaving PILES of crap everywhere)....." TOTAL bullshit. Really fooled SOME of the people ALL of the time.

Best of all, Its mole in AA. So much for "what you hear here, let it stay here." So much for not taking inventories. MY peeps tell me ITS peeps tried to reign them into a smear discussion about me! Lovely! THIS is a ray of light?????????? Who leaves behind a legacy of CRAP all over the house. Nice way to end.

I'm here, I'm ok. Stoney? The boy's a stud.

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Day 2203

?????

Re: the person who gave a speech praising Its memory as a ray of sunshine/optimist. Newsflash: "rays of sunshine" "optimists" don't kill themselves, leaving their husband to clean up the mess. Really, the ultimate narcissistic act. "Sober" people don't do the ultimate escape, after hoarding pills to overdose.

The funeral isn't about YOU! When I initially refused her request to give a talk, it responded "but I worked....." So, you're why we're here? People really, REALLY need to check themselves.

More fun facts: they use Stoney. Since they know how I'll respond, they twist him to their way of thinking-rather than leave it to he and I to work out. I can't WAIT 'til this day ends, he and I will have each other (though his girl has been wonderful-as have his peeps).

Its ashes, gave them to Stoney, who I'm sure gave them to........whatever.

Newsflash: It's STILL dead! The person we know and loved hasn't existed since it was diagnosed with cancer. From then on, It became a permanent victim, living off the mercy and ignorance of Its collected groupies. Frightening.

So much easier to blame me isn't it?

FYI, who IS still assuring Stoney's needs are met, rather than taking care of my own?

Gotta love all the religious crap littering the house, all the 12 step shit now laying as debris. Is this the example Its sponsees should follow?

Wonder what they'll do after today? Interfere in ANOTHER'S life?

You really CAN fool some of the people all of the time.

MY peeps made the difference. As more than one indicated, "your make believe friends had to show themselves." Nice.

Never, ever, would I take it upon myself to interfere in a funeral as these assholes have. Each and every one of them will have to answer to God. My conscience is clear as hell, I do the right thing-though difficult.

Friday, June 26, 2015

Day 2202

Half empty.

The peeps that showed really helped a lot. Its groupies? Not a word to me, fuck 'em. One of 'em-a good one, made a speech, how It was such an "optimist..." It really had 'em fooled. Optimists commit suicide? My peeps were smart enough-and discrete, to be cool. As anyone with dignity would. It REALLY fooled SOME of the people ALL of the time. Scary. GREAT legacy.

Stoney was a stud! Really proud of him. Both he and his girl stepped up. It was a pleasure to introduce them. His peeps, similarly amazing people. Nice.

Marciana, made my morning. I was not alone, I never was.

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Day 2201

Yes, that was inappropriate

So, got called by the Funeral Director yesterday asking "who are these people and what meds are they NOT on?" Today, more drama.

Turns out, there's a mole in my AA meetings. Someone has been misinforming Stoney, re: what I'd purportedly shared. Good boundaries there eh?

Better. NOW it turns out, Stoney made independent arrangements. Not an entirely bad thing, he has balls, gotta respect him. Problem is: not his job. Fuck it, he did what he hadda do, props to him!

Next time I go to a funeral, note to self: my input is NOT welcome re: arrangements.

People seem to forget they need to FUCKOFF re: their opinions.

This am, I ran. I'm good.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Day 2200

The fun continues

Thank GOD it isn't raining, got my miles, so hey, do your worst-I can handle it.

Funeral Director calls, saying 2 peeps are there asking a million questions. Let that sink in. Have YOU ever gone to a funeral and had the balls to think your input was of any consequence???? PLEASE!

This points to the problem I indicated centuries ago. It never became a wife. It ALWAYS put friends first. These same friends who believed all Its bullshit. NOW, I look like the bad guy because basically, I tell them their input is inappropriate. Worst of all, they have my sons ear. My eventual answer to them: when you pay my sons therapy bills, your opinion will have importance, until then, attend the service and mind your boundaries. Really?????!!!!!

Best of all: the Funeral Director was taken aback. Their response: whotheFUCK are these people???

Irony: It leaves a note and $$$ for Stoney.

It left the house a TOTAL wreck.

Good, let the people who THINK they have a say, see this. Remember, if I touched ANYTHING, I was threatened with legal action.

This pm, did the lawn. Been delaying it since I didn't particularly wanna 1)see where Stoney destroyed my garage door, since It had him convinced I was a prick for locking it. (never mind that I hadda lock it because It fucked with my things. It was a safe zone. Nevermind that I offered to open the garage whenever It wanted. No, better to destroy.)  And 2)Didn't particularly wanna visit the death scene. But, whatthefuck. Grew balls, did what needed to be done. The car in which It escaped? A shipwreck, with barely enough space cleared on the back seat. Amazing S.M.H.

...but I need counseling...............did I placed my pain (for debts self-imposed)  above all others' lives, leaving them to clean up my mess???  In the car, behind the death scene, a plaque: live one day @ a time. S.M.H. NOT retrived from Its personal effects: the engagement ring. Wonder how much It got for it.

S.M.H.

I ran, I'm good.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Day 2199

?

Times like these show who your REAL friends are.

People with SERIOUS boundary issues are expressing their opinions, making things REALLY complicated. "Friends" want a church service. Dana did NOT. Of course, these "friends" are placing THEIR needs as a priority. These individuals have always had boundary problems, and really need to SHUTTHEFUCKUP. They have no idea how much true damage they cause.

Did I ever think MY will should affect others' lives? No. But I was raised properly.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Day 2198

NOW the fun starts!


Did the 10k, was GREAT. Humid as hell, high chance of storms, but we did it!!!!!!! REALLY a case of getting back in the saddle.


Worked overnight, then home. Unfortunately. Stoney and his peep going at it, I made myself scarce. I finally speak with him...details....he's pissed @ me for Its death. A natural response, but inappropriate. Like any one person has that power? He thinks (think others have poisoned him? Will he EVER see it takes a MAN to stick to a vow rather than escape? Happy father's day!) because It dug Itself in to a financial hole, that I refused to print $$$. Really. Who the fuck pays everything? Unfortunately, he forgets this as he's been conditioned. Bottom line, who was always here, making sure debt collectors didn't take the house? Who assured all bills got paid. Remember when I, purposely, didn't? Electricity, off, mortgage co calling constantly-all in an effort to NOT be taken for granted.


Such is the fate of a Father.


I ran, life is good.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Day 2197

Now the fun starts!

Of course, now Sybil's friends start giving their opinions re: funeral arrangements etc... Question: whotheFUCK asked 'em?

One of the-many-issues Sybil had was never being a wife. It was always tethered to Its friends. It never was a problem until It lost Its mind.

And now, I get to pick up the pieces.

A religion teacher kills Itself. A parents escapes all its responsibilities. An AA member, with supposed 28 years of "sobirety" overdoses.

Fuck it, I ran Flushing Meadows 10k, I met my peeps. I'm ok.

Happy Father's Day.

Saturday, June 20, 2015

Day 2196

C'est fini.

Last night, called by Missing Persons, Nassau County. Keith reported Sybil m.i.a. Hadn't been seen for 2 days. 10:30 I get home, 12:20, told she'd overdosed, a suicide. Body in the Olds in the driveway.

Friday, June 19, 2015

Day 2195

Nice way to wrap it up!

Had the day off, chilled, slept in. Ran a 5k last eve @ Flushing Meadows. Always with my mother in my heart. Remembering her taking care of us all, alone. No bitching, no whining-hear that Sybil????? Took care of 5 people under one roof, single handed. Hope she sees me now.

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Day 2194

Hate to say "I told you so..."


Scroll back, a loooong time. Remember the posts re: It bought a SHITLOAD of Christmas gifts for Its peeps? So much so that there was a PILE (where the PILE of crap currently resides) in front of Its closet? Remember how I called a spade a spade re: all this $$$ spent for peeps, yet how much for Its spouse? And where is that $$$ now???? Got debt?????? Remember all that $$$ pissed away. As I went to work, daily, then came home and slept. Motherfucker ain't I? Not ONCE has It EVER lived on a budget. Now, deep, deep debt. Hmmmmmm.


Had a GREAT day. Ran, chilled, hit my meeting. Shared about the drama, slept like a baby.


Nice.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Day 2193

!!!!!

1) Slayer ROCKED!!!!! Been a LONG time since my ears felt that numb. No opening act, no bullshit, just face melting metal.

2)Came in, Sybil actually.....whats the word........NORMAL? Admitted, finally, to Its financial status-knee deep. My answer, of course I pointed out options, as well as stating the obvious: would be nice if It didn't abuse me when It felt overwhelmed. NOW It needs to be nice????? I was actually touched. WOULD'A been nice if It just copped to Its shit, rather than fucking with me.

Best of all? Drug addict slut across the street calls It, to notify It that I was there. THIS is an example of the people you call your peers?


Fuck it, ran this am, ran into 3 peeps. I'm ok.

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Day 2192

Insanity is?

Sybil cannot internalize that Its calls are blocked.

Not once has It EVER called to say anything kind, always venom/mental illness. The good news: Pedrito concurs. Bitch always has an agenda, thus, calls blocked. My peeps e mailed me telling me the times It attempted. Please, spare me the drama.

Illness: "You kept my son from seeing me when I was in the hospital."
Reality: I took him at least 3 x weekly, each time we went to Sizzler. Ask him, he'll remember, unless his mind is THAT poisoned.

Illness: "You cut the house phones to keep my son from contacting me."
Reality: Those to whom monies were owed were calling so often, those were the ONLY calls we got. With Sybil in the hospital, I didn't need any more bad news (my hand were sort of full).
Further Reality: While It was in the hospital, I took care of the bills.

Illness: "My friends say..."
Reality: Your friends get Mental Illness' side of the story, not reality. In addition, when they pay the bills they get a say. Otherwise, SHUTTHEFUCKUP. Do I meddle in their private lives?\
Further reality: I have no right to privacy?

Illness: "You should die a slow painful death."
Reality: THIS is how a religion teacher addresses her husband? GREAT example.

Truth is: the person I married is a lovely, wonderful, caring human. Unfortunately, this person  hasn't been seen for quite some time. My love for her endures, in the hope she returns.

Monday, June 15, 2015

Day 2191

Results count!

Had a GREAT dinner with my "make believe friends," who expressed their concern that though Sybil was invited to my retirement dinner, It failed to even respond. THAT, they explained (like I told ya) would've countered all Its accusations. God FORBID your psycho script is disproven. Fuck it, the dinner was great-with positive people.

Got my miles this am, beat the rain-by a hair. Nice!!!!!

Sunday, June 14, 2015

Day 2190

Life CAN be a dream!

Retirement rocks!!!!! Spent the day with my "make believe friends," then a meeting. Nice. Slept like a baby!!!

This am, got my miles. Again, humid as hell, but, no rain! Lovely!!!

Before and after with my peeps. Really feelin' the love!

One had a good question re: Toxichouse. "In winter, Bitch screams you need to buy oil. In summer, Bitch steals your fan. You CAN'T win can you???" I had no answer for that. Only that Bitch isn't taking the meds It used to. Need I say more?


Day 2190

Life CAN be a dream!

Retirement rocks!!!!! Spent the day with my "make believe friends," then a meeting. Nice. Slept like a baby!!!

This am, got my miles. Again, humid as hell, but, no rain! Lovely!!!

Before and after with my peeps. Really feelin' the love!

One had a good question re: Toxichouse. "In winter, Bitch screams you need to buy oil. In summer, Bitch steals your fan. You CAN'T win can you???" I had no answer for that. Only that Bitch isn't taking the meds It used to. Need I say more?

Got my miles, hung with my peeps, slept like a baby. Life is good!


Saturday, June 13, 2015

Day 2189

Yummm!!!!

VERY appreciative audience yesterday. Talk went well.

This am, got my miles. Didn't think it'd be a go, but the rain held off.

BEAUTIFUL sunshine day, humid, but no rain. Nice!!!!!

Friday, June 12, 2015

Day 2188

Make THAT make sense:

Come in, again, my belongings vandalized. Stoney sleeping in my bed.

1)I'm told to stay out of Stoney's room, after (GASP) throwing out a discarded bag lying on the ground. But it's ok for him to take over my space. Who IS the parent? ZERO respect for boundaries. I come in yesterday, he's sleeping in my bed!!!

2)First, all my stuff is thrown to the ground, then I'm told to move it to the den, then what I move to the den is fucked with.

3)It seems to have a penchant for door abuse. the front screen door? A shambles. The back screen door: a shambles. The garage door? A shambles. The gate (for which I paid ALOT to fix, after IT left it open before superstorm Sandy)? A shambles. Seems It is REALLY good @ destruction. Yet bitches incessantly. Try taking care of your home. Don't let it resemble your vehicles. (and that crap in from of the closet, that's been on the floor for months????????).

??????????????

...but I need counseling..............................................

Got over 300 hits on the Youtube page. 75% commenting on the footage of the vandalizing of my space and belongings. Especially the footage of the distance between the living room and side door, as opposed to the living room and the back door. NO ONE can understand why It insists on using the den as Grand Central. The same 75% commenting on obvious acting out behavior. Why? I can't understand.

I respect the hell outta Stoney and Sybil, despite their behavior. Unfortunately, they believe they can do whatever they please. (gotta love motion sensor cams). It does ZERO parenting and he takes full advantage. Don't blame him, he's terrific and one hell of a person.

Retirement is amazing. Never did I think all those years of hard work would result in such wonderful days. Really happy I chose the career path I did.

Got my miles, of to enjoy the delightful day!

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Day 2187

Results positive!

The crowd reacted well to the speech yesterday. Glad I'd been invited.

They asked a very salient question: remember when I was in the den making calls to set up sales appointments? Remember Sybil SCREAMING that I should make my calls from the park? The audience couldn't understand why ANYONE would be so abusive. My answer: neither can I.

Life would be SO much easier if people SHUTTHEFUCKUP if they hadn't anything positive to contribute. But Sybil seems to think It has license to say whatever, whenever. No boundaries, no filter. It is what it is.

Got my miles this am, again, with my "make believe friends." Had a terrific am, leading to a terrific day.

Really a positive meeting. Glad I went.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Day 2186

Me gusta!

Rain held off yesterday, had a great evening! Slept like a baby. Nice. Sybil was tranquil, Stoney hangin' with his peeps.

This am, again, rain nowhere to be found. Sunshine, warm, perfect for a run. Hooked up with one of my "make believe friends," touched base, then got my miles. Nice!!!!!

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Day 2185

Yin/Yang

Yin: had a great day, ran/worked. Got in, all quiet @ Toxichouse. It sleeping, thank you GOD. Impossible to have negative shit thrown at ya.

Went upstairs, Stoney hangin'. Actually got the chance to-though briefly-speak with him. This felt as wonderful as the first drop of water a guy gets coming outta the desert.

REALLY a great person, though I pray he one day sees how his mother brainwashed him.

But that's for another time.

Bottom line: was GREAT to get to sleep with ZERO negativity.

All that changed in the am, of course. Predawn, Bitch breaking my balls: where are you going," really? Get interrogated re: every fucking step you take in your own home. PLEASE shutthefuckup! I literally can't take a step without negative shit. Yet, It can do as it pleases, no filter/no boundaries. Take your meds.

Thank you Stoney, I really love talking to you, and pray you know I'm always there for you. You're a great person.

This am, got my miles, bumped into one of the trainers. Made my fucking day, told me "yep, you're skinny." Thank you GOD!

Monday, June 8, 2015

Day 2184

!

Broke 10!!!!! Did better than I'd hoped in yesterday's run. Nice. See what you can accomplish when you get some rest.

This am, Pedrito called. It called him about......whoreallycares. Bottom line, he gave It the info re: counseling, told It to make the app't. Does this sound familiar? Isn't this exactly what I'd done, repeatedly?

Again, for the record: the person I married: lovely, kind, sweet. My son: smart, quick witted, well spoken.

The 2 individuals living @ Toxichouse besides me? One mental as hell, acts out, thinks It has the right to do as It pleases, has ZERO boundaries, misdirects Its anger, and abuses Its spouse. It's son: unfortunately believed everything It stated, to take out his emotions on his father. Lovely.

I ran, I'm good.

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Day 2183

Yummmm!!!

Had a PEACEFUL night-no one harassed me/screaming that I should "die a slow, painful death." No one screaming that I should print $$$$$, no one raging that no one would love me etc.....(THIS, from a religion teacher. So much for "love one another...").

Hit my al-anon, dealt with some work issues, then in for the night.

This am, 4m race-did well. Rest really helped. Spent the day in Manhattan before heading to The Governor's Ball.

FYI, odd how Bitch SCREAMS that I got fired because I'm so horrible, yet, when It and Stoney were invited to the dinner for my retirement (@ which the staff-as well as my supervisor-were present), It didn't even acknowledge the invite nor the day. Its presence would've once and for all disproven the psychotic script It wrote. But that wouldn't make for a good rant would it? Being a witness to the staff describing my dedication as well as they relating to It how I always spoke glowingly of both It and Stoney. THAT would've totally disproven Its psychotic bullshit.

Live, laugh, love!!!

And yes, Stoney is constantly in my heart. Saw him last night, even after he fucks with my stuff, I love him more than anything. I only hope one day he sees that it's harder to do what I do - NOT respond to the abuse - than to do what It does.

THAT is what Jesus taught.

Saturday, June 6, 2015

Day 2182

OUCH!!!!!!!!

Spent the night working. Felt really, good, but couldn't really rest. The knowledge that my home is not my home, that everyone can do whatever they want to my treasured mementos (marathon medals, etc...) hurts. You'd think these things would be examples of fortitude and accomplishment, rather than objects of scorn.

Remember when Stoney FREAKED that I (gasp) threw out a bag discarded on his floor? Yet he can take my stuff and throw it where he pleases. Make that make sense?

Problem is: no respect for boundaries.

I respect the HELL outta him. He's REALLY a great human. But, again, he believes what he's been told. Pity.

He doesn't see I break my balls to assure he has a home.

In return? I get shit on.

Keep on keepin' on, it's what I do.

And again, yes, I'd marry It again. If I hadda do it all over, I certainly would.

The person I married is the best human I've ever met. My son is the best thing that ever happened to me.

Unfortunately, shit happened.

So it goes.

Friday, June 5, 2015

P.S.

You really have to wonder: I pay for everything, including internet. He monitors everything (hope he enjoys this-though it IS sad that only I respect boundaries). He is allowed to do so, In fact, by enabling him, It is part of the whole shmeer.

Nice.

Live laugh love!

Day 2181

Ahh, good to be..."

@ Toxichouse? Spent the night working, was really nice to be in a welcoming environment. peeps were THRILLED I was there, pissed I'd been away. Nice.

Got back, my stuff in the den again vandalized.

I don't blame Stoney. He does the best he can, always. I trust him implicitly. What hurts is his belief that I'm the bad guy, really.

1)There is no bad guy

2)Irony: I'm not supposed to touch a THING in the place, yet others can destroy my belongings, vandlize my belongings, and generally tred on my turf.

3)More Irony: He really is an outstanding person who, unfortunately, believes what his mother tells him. If he could think for himself he'd see I'm always there for him and love him to pieces. Likewise, I love his mother, but the female residing @ Toxichouse is not that person. There lies an angry individual who takes Its frustrations out on the individual who-with It-bore the world a wonderful son.

I'm ok. Thank God for Al-Anon.

Thursday, June 4, 2015

Day 2180

Ahhhhhh

Hit the meeting last night, was really good. After the rains-finally-stopped, went to see my peeps. Q: how does Al-Anon define "slip?" A: "Compassion."

The peeps understand. I dearly love the woman I married. The person who currently is destroying my home, not so much. But, what does the wedding vow include: "In good times and in bad, for better and for worse." Unfortunately, I seem the only one who knows the definition of "vow."

I dearly miss my wife, but I understand It needs to go through what It needs to go through.

Wish my son understood, but he too needs to follow his path.

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

This just in

What slays me:

It accuses me of thinking I'm owed something because I pay the bills. I NEVER said anything, merely presented a fact.

Yesterday It went OFF when I asked if It could converse calmly, It did-for one sentence, then went off AGAIN. Literally less than an inch from my face, spitting. THIS is how Jeeeeeeeeezus would behave?

And after this I'm supposed to sign off on ANYTHING?

Really?????

Meanwhile, my son thinks I'm Satan. The guy who went to work for 24 years without a sick day, who assured all needs would be attended to. Which, of course, they were. THAT gets translated into "for the past 5 years you haven't given your son a cent." To which I replied "tell me when to cancel cable, you can do whatever you want with the $$$ from that."

But I'm supposed to buy a fridge, a couch, etc.....when I'm banned from using them? (as if it has the right to dictate that?)

Remember preCancer? It was normal. THAT was the person I'd marry again in a heartbeat.

Live, laugh, love!!!!!

Day 2179

Here comes the sun!

Literally and figuratively!!!!!

Called Pedrito. I got a message from peps that Bitch tried calling, twice. It simply CANNOT grasp that Its calls are not accepted on my line, they're redirected to my peps. If the call is worthy, I'm notified. So, It tried calling, no messages, wonder what bill It owes NOW? What destruction has It enacted NOW?

So, re: Pedrito. Did some fact checking. Remember the "you never visited your brother?" His automatic response "you came every day." When It claimed to have had lunch/dinner with him last week, a couple of weeks ago, he said she never did. His comment "she kinda makes things up doesn't she?" My response "she does the best she can." That will ALWAYS be my response. It sucks that It insists on using me as a toilet, but that's ok. I know, God knows, and Pedrito knows wassup. And even if no one else did, I do.

Bitch is miserable, owes too much. Here's a secret: STOP SPENDING. Get your shit together.

Really??? What would YOU think if you inherited not one but 2 VERY used cars?

What would YOU think if you got so many tickets, you can't even bring yourself to court to face your court date (REAL sober behavior?).

And Pedrito REALLY loved: "you need to buy me a fridge and a couch and an oven and........" His response to that "does she break things on purpose?" My answer, "no, It's just a shipwreck who insists on destroying everything. He REALLY couldn't wrap his head around Bitch's need to get into the garage. Again, I explained, you can't expect logic from a person such as this.

Fuck it, I ran I'm good, the sun's out.

Live, laugh, love!!!!!

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Day 2178

Here we go again.

Came in, same crap. It RAGING, "give me my money..." SCREAMING about taking me to court because........basically I need to print $$$.

-I'm a horrible person no one would/could love/like.
-I'm selfish and only think of myself (redundant?)
-I never gave my son money over the last 5 years (who pays the bills?)
-I portray myself as a nice person when It and Its friends know otherwise (of course, Its friends got their information from whom??? A bit jaundiced n'est pas?).
-I have no right to sleep @ the address to which I pay all bills.
-I never visited It while It was in the hospital for 5 weeks (who was working and taking care of the house AND our son? What the Bitch has proven Itself incapable of? The house is falling apart and "caring for our son involves buying frozen food). Also, It never, ever told me It was going into the hospital. I was, frankly, happy for the peace and quiet. As well as the chance to put the house in order.
-It deserves a new fridge, washer/dryer, and living room furniture. A fridge-that I'm not allowed to touch, a washer/dryer (the dryer works, the washer you already know, is broken as it was allowed to "dance" around the basement since It never ever balanced a load), the living room furniture-for a living room I'm not allowed to sit in-furniture It has already destroyed on 3 occasions. Much like Its cars-It destroys EVERYTHING and maintains NOTHING. Yet wallows in Its victimization. Everything is my fault of course.

All this while less than an inch from my face, with spit flying.

My response: silence.

All this from a religion teacher (THIS is how Jesus behaved? THIS is what Jesus taught? "Love one another as I have loved you," unless you've made your life a mess and think money will solve your illness.

Also: "and your son wants nothing to do with you." Of course not, I don't enable him. I pay all the bills providing a home. It acts like I boast of this, I do not. I AM happy that I have the intelligence to budget. Unlike the mental Bitch.

How ARE your 2 cars?

Live laugh love!

Monday, June 1, 2015

Day 2177

Rain sucks.

Was s'posed to do the 5k last night, no fucking way. POURING rain. As the peeps ran to the start, I ran to my truck.

Had a VERY good night, peace and quiet. Great to have peeps.

Over 7,200 hits on the Youtube page. Over half asking why the Bitch doesn't take meds, and exactly what It's mental diagnosis is. And nearly EVERY one wondering why It destroys everything and maintains nothing. 90%+ ask why it can't keep a vehicle decent. Remember the Malibu? After It demanded my set of keys, no problem there, the car got totally trashed. Now, It has 2 pieces of crap. As if trashing Toxichouse wasn't enough?